Are or just Is?

Dear Blog,

Surprise!
yes, I am blogging. Last night was a real surprise to me too.
So that is what I am gonna blog.
I just feel like talking this shiit out and breeeeaaaatttthhhe. Really.

So we had our much awaited chat certification in order for us to be truly useful and perform the job we signed for.
Unfortunately, I was listed to be part of the first batch to be certified. Hurray!
What we expected was just a common scenario that needs basically WFE compliance (WFE is a tool we use to troubleshoot). That is actually pretty nerve racking already. You know, just knowing that you will be graded and that someone is watching or is keen to spot every wrong (i.e. time, spelling and grammar) is hardcore heart racing!

Going back, the chat was basically smooth. I know I had few lapses but for sure I passed that one. But to our horror, right after the chat certification, we were asked to stay online and wait for another set of exam! Like WTF is going on? SERIOUSLY. It was very much unexpected! The thing is, it was an on the spot question and answer. However, we were only given 30-freakin-seconds to answer! Like hello? Aren't we gonna breathe and think first? WTF. We were totally caught off guard. At that point, I can be really noisy and annoying because of the pressure that we were put on. I may be the only one in "panic mode" but still, I think they should understand. Although I manage to answer the questions (because of some helpful resources), I still miss out answering two-effin-questions. :(

The whole time I was like, hey guys, I need help here too. I'm NO genius and you know that! Unfortunately, I was like feeling all alone. I was panicky, and all nervous. I was pretty much feeling hot in spite of the freezing aircondition!

Bottom line is, I was able to "know" who are (I think it's just an "is") the people that are truly concern about me and that I can rely with in times of troubles, how much more in times of fun right?

This situation was a complete surprise, that the friends you thought was real enough to support you will let you down in times that you need them. How cool is that? It's not a first time, but still, it is very disappointing.

Going back to the result, I don't know yet. We will know that tomorrow. I have this bad feeling that I didn't do well hence I will fail. (Please don't!) I was basically copy/pasting and I am sure that the "juror" can sense that. It was really tough. We finished by 1am. I tried to get sleep at our office's sleeping quarters, I tried rolling in bed for two hours and yet at 4:30AM now I am still awake and blogging.

It was just the first level, we will be facing another one if we're able to pass this one and another two if we fail. :(

Okay. I've said it enough. I think I will just go home. It's not that dangerous to commute now, I hope.

I will update you again, blog.

xx
Tin